TW: SH, depression, family and friends issues, anxiety, self-destrucing thoughts, ED, bullying,
(HUGE TW FOR THE WHOLE BOOK, NO CHAPTER WITHOUTH ANY OF THOSE)
16+, if you struggle with any of these, please don't bottle it up in yourself, feel free to tell someone about your problems <3
Koshi went through a lot. But she never complains, she always smiles and crushes in the middle of the talk, thinking she matters around her mates, or dare she say - friends. Koshi suffers in silence, but she will never tell that she is after three attempts, she will laugh and joke about dying. Koshi is never offline, just in case someone will type to her for something. But will someone notice if Koshi goes offline?...
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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