A Solarballs inspired story - How To Be A Planet

"I don't remember much from when I was born.

Neither do I know why I even exist nor why anything in paticular exists. I've been told every living being (- well atleast, every THINKING being -) feels the same. Doesn't matter if it's planets, stars, black holes or earthlings.

Yet for a while it seemed like I'm the only one to experience this uncertainty.

My name Saturn still sounds like a slur sometimes and when I look in a mirror, I often don't regonize who is in front of me. My touch feels cold and foreign.

But when i'm with him, everything was totally different. Maybe that is the reason for what I've done and haven't done?
...
For him?"

When you're born, you cannot imagine evil or madness. Everything is great and you feel safe with those who grow up with you. Understanding that not everything is alright in this universe is a learning process and difficult to comphrehend.

The same applies to the system of Sol.
As the planets grew up, there were only a few inconveniences now and then but everyone seemed to like eachother. But hatred laid on one of their cores and slowly made its way up their surface.
What happened after, changed everything and everyone.