IF I WAS A BOY

I imagine if I was a boy then how my life would be? I believe it would better than what is today. Hi, my name is Lucee and I belong to a patriarchal society. My life was never like a normal girl where they get a better educational and better lifestyle. I was never allowed to study and get a better education. My father wanted a boy child so he never accepted me as his daughter. He used to hate me and hated my mom because she brought me into this world. She was cursed every day by my father. He used to even beat her up. My mother always protected me. She was my strength, my power and she was the reason I wanted to live. But one day God took away all my happiness and my strength. He took away my precious MOM. From then I stopped believing in God and cursed him for giving me this life.
My life stopped and my dad wanted me to marry. But I did not want this to happen. I requested my dad but he did not accept my words. I wanted to live my life like other girls. I used to curse myself for being a girl, and use to think that if I was a boy, I could get my father's love because I don't know what is father's love, I always missed the love of my father. My father wanted me to marry he was tring to force me. I had no choice so, I decided to close my eyes forever and go where my MOM is staying. But I pray to God that my father would get a better lifestyle and good health.