Broken

I've cornered myself
to the illusions of my mind
that's left me broken sadden
and blue I've crawled
but to never get through
like a lucid dream that's
a game I cant win
over and over again
thunderous my heart
about to beat outside my chest
will it ever calm and rest
tolerant and resilient
against my own strength
how far would I go to what length
I've never been called beautiful
just pretty some would say
the whispered words of my mind
have made me feel this way
this game of Life I cant win
I've tried and tried just to lose again
the thoughts of death have
never crossed my mind
because of so much sorrow
my heart will it calm and rest
in hopes of a better Tomorrow.......