D I A R Y
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Ongoing9m
Last published Fri, Nov 15, 2024
Creating a diary is something I don't want to do, because i feel im writing this like im bidding a goodbye.
It hurts how i live with what if and regrets then repeat the cycle, its frustrating and exhausting.
It all started when i get to introduce to the korean drama and wattpad world, where everything feels surreal. I isolated my self and escape reality not knowing that, i might prolonged my life and it did.
I drop out off school because of the reasons that i got ashamed by my teacher infront of the class.
Maybe partly my fault because im attending school every other day but does she have to do that?
Being a person with low self esteem i cant take that. I can't help but to ponder and i ask myself, if she have a problem with me that day, i hope she should've just talk to me privately.
Or im just too sensitive?
I remember when my not so close kuya ran ask me if im really going to stop going to school, he offer me to raise my baon or ihatid niya ako sa school but despite his perseverance to push me not to, i did.
Thinking about it now made my eyes teary... and what if's started to run in my heads again.
What if i listen to them? For sure my life would've been different.
What if i got a motivation, i got drive and i know what i want to be back then? For sure im not where i am right now.
Regrets start kicking in like a tick of a clock when it reaches its time.
Im not writing this because i wanted to earn readers or views, i wanted to write this because i want you to know what my story is....
Im Ariesa Luna Enitsirk, who loves nature, moon and everything we see in the sky. 23 senior high grad, doesn't have a job which im not proud off and still doing nothing but writing and reading...
And this is my life.
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She pulled him with his collars towards herself with all her will instead of just crashing her lips on him she just felt his lips with her's. her weak hands trembled around his collars.Her tears were flowing silently. He was in the complete state of shock from her actions but still feeling her hands trembling around his collars he supported the back of her head softly He had controlled his emotions from ages but when this happened he wasn't able to control himself all his rage, emotions, jealousy, fear came alive. It felt like a peace after an age for both of them. All unuttered emotions were deduced from that simple touch. Suddenly he dragged himself from that kiss "What are you even doing?" he asked furiously "Trying to show you that I only love you and no one" she shouted with a heavy voice _______________________ Left heartbroken at the altar, she never expected her life would lead her into, the arms of her ex lover's Elder brother - the grieving man, shattered by the loss of his 'wife' and 'unborn child'. Their forced marriage begins with cold formality, but as she supports him through his darkest days, a delicate connection starts to form between them. Just when it seems like hope is around the corner, a devastating secret shatters their fragile peace: she's pregnant by the brother who abandoned her. His heartache and jealousy drive a painful distance between them, threatening the love that was slowly growing. The situation gets worse when the brother returns, determined to claim both the child and the woman he left behind. Dive into a story of love, loss, and unexpected twists where every turn reveals new depths of the human heart.
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