D I A R Y
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Ongoing9m
Last published Fri, Nov 15, 2024
Creating a diary is something I don't want to do, because i feel im writing this like im bidding a goodbye.
It hurts how i live with what if and regrets then repeat the cycle, its frustrating and exhausting.
It all started when i get to introduce to the korean drama and wattpad world, where everything feels surreal. I isolated my self and escape reality not knowing that, i might prolonged my life and it did.
I drop out off school because of the reasons that i got ashamed by my teacher infront of the class.
Maybe partly my fault because im attending school every other day but does she have to do that?
Being a person with low self esteem i cant take that. I can't help but to ponder and i ask myself, if she have a problem with me that day, i hope she should've just talk to me privately.
Or im just too sensitive?
I remember when my not so close kuya ran ask me if im really going to stop going to school, he offer me to raise my baon or ihatid niya ako sa school but despite his perseverance to push me not to, i did.
Thinking about it now made my eyes teary... and what if's started to run in my heads again.
What if i listen to them? For sure my life would've been different.
What if i got a motivation, i got drive and i know what i want to be back then? For sure im not where i am right now.
Regrets start kicking in like a tick of a clock when it reaches its time.
Im not writing this because i wanted to earn readers or views, i wanted to write this because i want you to know what my story is....
Im Ariesa Luna Enitsirk, who loves nature, moon and everything we see in the sky. 23 senior high grad, doesn't have a job which im not proud off and still doing nothing but writing and reading...
And this is my life.
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In past, I was cheerful, positive, full of love and joy, until my father destroyed everything, took everything from me, turned me into a cold, heartless, and wrathful, no more happiness in my life. Until I finally met her again, my old friend and also my first love, my world was so beautiful with her, everything was perfect with her. All the beautiful memories I've been through with her for a long time... it crossed my mind, at the moment I looked into her eyes. But there was nothing I could do, I just pretended not to remember her, didn't know her, and it broke me. I want to hug her, I want to kiss her, I want to make her happy, but I can't. I can't keep my promise to her, my promise to always be by her side, I've broken it, the fact that I abandoned her. And I was so surprised after hearing she had an accident, which made her to lose her memory, and it was all because of me, that I had put her through it, that I had made her suffer. It would have been better if it had been me, not her, all my fault, all this because of my selfishness and my stupidity. She deserves happiness, she deserves someone who much better than me, who's capable of making her happier, not me, because I'm just giving her misery.
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