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Time has run out,
For me,
Everything's distant and I don't know what to believe
It's so hard,
Lost in the world confusion and I need to leave,
For awhile,
Life is so meaningless there is nothing worth a smile,
So goodbye,
I'll miss you,
And I'm sorry,
But this is my fate.
Everything is worthless,
Nobody who wants me to stay,
And I'm sorry,
But I've waited too long,
So here's my goodbye,
No one will cry over, me,
I'm not worth any tears.
It's been the years, of abuse,
Neglected to treat the disorder that's controls my youth,
For so long,
I'm in a fleshy tomb buried up above the ground,
It's no use,
Why should I hold on?
It's been five years
Don't need one more
So goodbye,
Life's abuse,
And I'm sorry,
But this is my fate,
Everything is worthless,
No one who wants me to stay
And I'm sorry,
But I've waited too long,
So here's my goodbye,
No one will cry over, me,
I'm not worth any tears.
And I'm sorry,
But this is my fate.
Everything is worthless,
No one who wants me to stay,
And I'm sorry,
But I've waited too long,
So here's my goodbye,
No one will cry over me,
So here's my goodbye,
No one will cry over, me,
I'm not worth any tears.
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