The way he makes me smile and open souls like mine. Taking me places and going to band and one day holding hands. Never to show who he really is and never tell our kids the story of love. When the sun is as not brighter than my love with him and can't ever shield it. Don't take it away a friend I used to have and stab me in the back from what I said and hurting my feelings at the end. His family showing the funniest things I've ever heard and saying not a word I laugh too hard I was on the floor. That's all I have to say read the rest to here the ways I deal with this new thing.