difficult - outer banks

"i've been drinking
and staying up too late reliving bad decisions
i thought eventually my ranting here would fix it
i really think sometimes there's something that i'm missing

oh, i know spiraling is miserable
i should probably go back home
why does that feel difficult, difficult?
oh, I hope i wake up invisible
i'd be someone no one knows
i guess I'm just difficult, difficult"

carmen lancaster has always felt out of place. back in los angeles, she was just the daughter of the impossibly perfect lancaster family, and now, in the outer banks, she's the new girl everyone thinks they already know. a kook by default, she's supposed to love the parties, the status, and the shallow friendships.
but carmen's never been one to follow the script. between her restless nights, trying to figure out who she really is, and days spent dodging her parents' expectations, she can't help but feel like she's spiraling. maybe she's just difficult.
and maybe there's more to life than playing the part everyone expects her to.