Underneath

I've said "I love you." to many people. I don't know wether I meant it. I don't know if I even know myself. I don't know if I'll ever figure it out. But, there was a boy. Were not together anymore. But, I miss him a lot. I have a feeling he was the one. Will he ever like me again? I don't know if it was love. People tell me, maybe it was just the memories. I know its not that. I see & talk to this boy like I feel nothing. But, he's not really looking. He's not looking underneath. How do I hide it?