Back Into The Void
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Last published Sat, Sep 13, 2025
Being void of emotions doesn't mean having no emotions.
It's pretending you're okay until you almost believe it.
Until you don't remember how it felt before.
Until numb becomes a personality.
Until someone says "Are you okay?" and you almost start crying because no one's asked in months.
And when someone finally reaches in - when someone finally cares -
you want to run.
Because hope is more terrifying than pain.
Because being saved means admitting you need saving.
Because the void tells you: they'll leave too.
The worst part of the void isn't being alone.
It's remembering what it felt like not to be.
I wish I had never met him. Kilian was the one who took me out the void. Now that he's gone. What do I do? The void is calling it's dragging me back into it's dark cold infinite walls...what do I do Kilian?
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