A sorrowful end while my hallow emotions fulfilled

He knows the consequences to his actions...but yet a world without his black sorrow is not a world for him, it's a hell created by his own guilt and hatred for himself. He knows that his black sorrow may not be able to win Alien Stage, but he hopes, and if Till loses, Ivan doesn't and wouldn't ever regret what he's going to do. He loves Till even if Till doesn't.