It just happened in a flash, just like that it was like a dream..no a nightmare one in which I could never wake up from, one in which we all couldn't wake up from.
We could never wake up from it...
If this were to happened at the beginning of our lives then at some point we could have said it's in the past let's focus on the present to make the future void of any more mistakes like the past but NO!
We were sailing smoothly, normal life shenaggins, but in an instant everything we knew, everything I KNEW was tainted pure black void of light, it's our present predicament it's not in the past -YET it can never be, no one wants to accept it's in the past, I don't want to accept it's in the past.
There's no future for me if i can't get past this, there's no future for US if we don't get past this..the question is can I ever get past this, CAN WE ever get past this, it involves all of us it's the bitter truth we all are protagonists in each chapter of this whole fucking nightmare OR story, we are engulfed in this darkness seeing as darkness has no source we ask amongst ourselves when will light come to us and what was the light we all once had, what gave the light, because the source of light we all had is dead, gone, broken, lost.....
"It wasn't me, I swear it wasn't me... it can't be, it wasn't my fault
"It's too much to remember everything and everyone, all pain and hurt is killing me day by day little by little.
I wish I could remove all the pain and move on in my life.
I wish I could find an eraser or Better a delete button, so that I could start from beginning, without any misery or pain."
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"Hey Eva, you know you can trust me, right? "
He asked me again cupping my cheeks, I can't let him continue this. It had to stop now or it would be too late. I can't risk everyone's life specially his. If hurting him means, him being alive then I would do it without thinking. Again and again.
"Eva are you even listening to me?"
Noah asked moving his face closer.
From this close I can even see the scar which he told me about, its just below the border line of his hair, it can be easily conceal but from this close its more real.
His eyes, they are magical. I would love to look at them all the time and never get tired of looking at in them.
No, I cannot do this to him, I can't be selfish, I have to do something this time.
"No" I answer and walked away from him.
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