An Orphan's Whisper

Cassian Syrota is orphaned on his fourth birthday. He had already had two (now three) foster families. He remains in the orphanage for years, until he is even a young teenager. His friends leave, he has been rejected, and now he is left with a choice. When he finally gets a chance to get a family, will he be willing to risk just losing them again, or will he choose to stay an orphan forever?
His choice is followed by uncontrollable thoughts of murder and suicide. Will he be able to fight the war inside his head, or will his dark side grab him and drag him across the line? From fosters to orphans to criminals and streets, Cassian has to find out what he can do to keep himself...and everyone around him...alive.
One of the only things that makes him want to try to better himself is a desire to live and be loved. From the time he meets a sweet girl his mindset starts changing. He starts reconsidering what he has been doing to both himself and others.
What would you do if you knew that the only people who liked you were gone now? If you could just escape and end all of the struggle and trauma, would you be willing to pull the trigger on yourself... or would you let your desire for death affect others' lives instead?

This is a story based purely on my emotions and mental state. It may or may not change as I write it, depending on if I change or not. I'm only 15, so if you read this and have any thoughts, please make them known. Anything helps, especially criticism. So please, be a critic! Everybody loves letting people know their opinions, good or bad; If you enjoy the story, let me know so that I know to continue it. If not, tell me what I can make better.