Suicide
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Last published Thu, Aug 22, 2019
I hate life? what about you?
My smiles aren't real.
my friends aren't real.
I don't even know if this world is "Real"
I'M NOT PRO-ANA/MIA/SELF HARM/ SELF HATE
AND YOU ARE ALWAYS FREE TO MESSAGE ME OKAY ASK FOR MY NUMBER MY SNAP CHAT MY TUMBLR KIK INSTAGRAM FAVEBOOK OR ANYTHING THAT YOU HAVE IF YOU NEED TO TALK TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING. (sorry for caps spam but this is important shit) AND IF I DON'T HAVE THE APP YOU USE TO TALK ON I'LL DOWNLOAD IT ALRIGHT. BECAUSE YOU'RE IMPORTANT AND WONDERFUL AND I'LL DELETE SCREENSHOTS AND BAND PICTURES TO HAVE SPACE ON MY PHONE SO I'M ABLE TO TALK TO YOU!!
I love you♡
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(In editing) She's depressed. She's anorexic. She's suicidal. She's insecure. Abigail has grown up with her three brothers and James, never meeting her parents, who abandoned her at birth. Her brothers were left to take care of her and keep a roof over their heads. Everyday they struggle to take care of Abigail, while working to keep them in their home. Life for them is hard. Life for Abigail is even harder. She has a dark mind and not by choice. Somewhere along the way she's developed these feelings of loneliness and hopelessness. Everyday is a struggle for her and just getting out of bed is a success. She meets Zach, a bad boy with a bad reputation. He starts off as a tutor, just to help her out, out of pity. But eventually feelings get involved and Abigail finds herself liking a boy for the first time in her life. Things get serious and she somehow learns about his drug dealing business. Everything gets hectic and Abigail doesn't know what to do with her life anymore. Or if she even wants to live.
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