My Fubared Life

Okay. So, I'm not usually one to let people know how I'm feeling. I usually keep to myself. I'm an observer. I like to watch people. find out who they truely are. Hey, what can I say? Actions speak louder than words.
I am a musicaholic. I listen to music all the time. It's one of my many weaknesses. I have two very great friends. One of which is my best friend. A guy. Yes, I'm a girl, and having a guy best friend isn't normally typical, but oh well. I consider myself average when it comes to everything. Nothing special going on here.
I'm also not typical for most females my age, which happens to be 16.(My birthday is June 3.) see I'm a sexual assault victim. I suffer from an anxiety disorder called panic disorder, which causes me to have panic attacks. I also have PTSD. Yeah, fun for me. I know I'm fucked up. Severely.
Let me tell you about myself. I'm scene. No not emo. No not punk. Scene. I listen to the music emos listen to, but I also listen to other music too. I'm average. Usually