Numb
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Last published Tue, Jun 9, 2015
It was eleven at night and I knew that if my mom found me in my room on my phone she would ground me, but I didn't care. I had more important things to deal with.
There was so much drama that I was going through and it was like no one even cared. The only time someone would notice is when I would act numb.
I don't know why I am like this, i guess I was just born this way. Maybe I was born blank and through the years I had become numb. I guess you just have to go with the flow and follow your dreams, no matter what the odds are.
That was my plan, to just continue to walk through the pain and ignore what everyone else said or did so that I wouldn't have to deal with it. The only problem is, I can't.
I naturally have to help people and make it better and I always end up taking the fall for them. The only reason I am still alive is because of the people that I would let down.
I carry so much pain on my shoulders is is hard to breathe, so I will stay numb.
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