The Meltdown

Institutionalized, locked in my own mind wondering.
Will I crash this time?
Wondering why and when is it going to be my time?
Trying to free my mind from the crazy reaction time.
Schizo, psycho, I might go into a rage
Slipping deeper with age.
Feelings of being demented.
Forgetting what I used to crave.
Bipolar, mixing emotions like magic potions.
Just sitting back thinking of the ocean, trying to control my emotions. roller coasting.
Can't control these emotions.
A free ride to suicide, but I don't want to die.
Look at myself right in the eyes and apply pressure on the wounds.
It's not too late and it's not too soon.
Kleptomania, taking.
Even if I don't need it, can't help it.
Gotta grab, maybe it's greed.
I cut my hands off but my adrenaline still on speed.
ADHD haunts me to the point of no sleep.
They say watch a movie but I can't complete.
I continue to cut to the heartbroken scenes of Reality.