I'm Trying
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Ultima pubblicazione lun, mar 31, 2025
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Juggling countless problems is a constant struggle, especially when you're known as the leader of the group. For Bangchan, the weight of great opportunities often comes with the toll of worsening mental health. His priority is ensuring the group's success without causing any issues for the members. Yet, in his mind, the biggest problem isn't the challenges-it's him.
For months now, Bangchan has felt like he's not putting in as much effort as he once did. Despite working tirelessly day and night to produce music for STAYs, he believes it's not enough to meet the expectations of his audience or his members. He's determined to be the best leader possible, masking his struggles behind a sweet smile.
Lately, the pressure has been mounting. Keeping STAYs happy, protecting his members, and doing his best in every role have left him overwhelmed. But no matter how much he does, he feels it's never enough. He's never enough.
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Considering this is my first story, I will try to make this good. Thank you for choosing this story to read!
TW: This story contains fluff, bullying, swearing, violence, and angst.
I do NOT own Straykids!!!
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