Feelings

You don't know yet, but you became my cocaine, my vodka shots, my walk of shame, my bloodied wrists, the joint between my lips, the kisses on my fingertips... You became my Addiction. * * * Just because it hurts doesn't mean it'll hurt forever. Just replace your addiction!

"𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒆𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆. 𝑵𝒐𝒘 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅. 𝑰'𝒎 𝒔𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒅 𝒃𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆." 𝑭𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒙𝒂 𝑲𝒚𝒍𝒊𝒆 𝑺𝒄𝒐𝒕𝒕 has been in love with one of her brother's best friends for a year. She never sees herself as good enough for him. She's been comparing herself to all of his past girlfriends. Her toxic best friend makes everything worse.She says that Felixa will only end up with another broken heart. She shouldn't be making things worse. She should be supporting her. Right? 𝑨𝒙𝒛𝒆𝒏 𝑱𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒔 𝑺𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒌 has broken many hearts. He's never cared about any of those broken hearts. He's lied and said things that he's never meant. He overheard a conversation in the cafeteria during lunch that crossed a line for him. He's watched a heart that shouldn't be broken end up broken. He absolutely hates it. Fixing that broken heart....did something unexpected to him. He started caring about someone. Started: January 10, 2024 Completed: Completed: March 16, 2024 *Language, Mature Themes, Trigger Warnings*

Rejecting a mate was a taboo but a male human mate couldn't make it any worse. As an Alpha, the strongest one to be exact, having a weak as a mate with unforgivable sin it's understandable to push him away from my life right? Then what's with this lingering feeling inside my heart? I wish I didn't love him. Yet I do. Now he's gone I've come to realize my mistake. To make matter worse, I'm the one who break him apart. I'm sorry, I love you.

"What else do you want me to say, Mia?" "Did you mean it?" There is a pause and I just-I feel exhausted, the kind that 12 hours of sleep hasn't been able to fix. "Hannah said I don't deserve to be loved, is that how you feel too?" She might not have said it in as many words but that's exactly what she meant. He takes my hand in his and kisses it. "Between the both of us-it's I who doesn't deserve to be loved." "Too bad you already are." "Please stop saying it!" he may not have screamed the words at me but he might as well have. "You think I am lying?" He holds my face with both his hands and looks deep in my eyes. "Mia, I will say this for the last time. I don't do love. I don't want to be loved by anyone and I will never fall in love with anyone ever. If you love me, keep that love to yourself. Please." "Why?" "This is the deal, Mia. Take it or leave it. I will give you my loyalty and my time but I will not have you telling me you love me ever again. I don't believe in love and I can't give you love. Can you live with that?" "What if I can't?"

"I remember his face, his eyes that begged for forgiveness, his body as it shook with anger and emotion. I remember how my world fell apart right before him and how he watched me completely disintegrate because of what he did. What he committed. The way he betrayed me. The heart he took from me and shattered. The trust I gave him that he threw away. He ruined it all, he ruined me. And now I'm forever broken, nothing can ever bring me back. Nothing." WARNING: sexual content, explicit content, language and violence.

this will be a part two to my other set of poems. please read them but they are not needed to understand these. These will be much sadder than my original ones usually.

Sorry? Sorry for what? You didn't do anything. This will never be your fault. I don't even know where to start. There is so much i want to say. But the more i look at you the more it hurts me. Your nervous and scared. You won't even keep eye contact for more than two seconds before you look away again. Your arms are folded into your stomach. Like your too scared to move or say anything else. I have destroyed you haven't I?

So, I think I’m just about over being your girlfriend.. I’m leaving, I’m leaving No more wondering what you’ve been doing Where you been sleeping.. It’s over.. I’m leaving, I’m leaving..

"I never thought that it would end up like that.. We were one soul.. We were in love.. And now what.. We are just an old story in each others memory.. Everyone went in another way.. Another world we can't get each other in. Your thoughts differ than mine.. We returned in to two souls every soul is trying to forget.. Maybe you forgot me and I'm just a memory for you now But for me you're more than such a memory.. You're the love of my life that I won't find it again.. You're my life, every beautiful memory is with you and only you.. Why did you leave me in the time that I needed you? You've broken me into pieces and I didn't think that you would do that.. You were too much pure to do that."