Make it "okay"

"And I know how much a mistake is worth
And how beautiful it is to makes mistakes"

I was floating somewhere far away from the real world, listening to those words sang in my earphones. My heart was growing super heavy leaving the homeland, it almost kept the plane to close to the land to fly.
But I couldn't let the things that happened keep me from achieving my biggest dreams.
"We'll think about it tomorrow", this also were the words I repeatedly said to myself. In fact, it was never my intention to think about it, but tomorrow was always so far away from today.
Although I found it hard to focus, there was something more on the horizon than just yesterday. Yesterday was heavy, and I decided to leave it for another day to worry.
I would just focus on myself, and only myself.

Practically, we didn't break up... yet.

I still wanted to discover the truth behind the mess, the untold words, the avoiding eyes and hesitant gestures. I still wanted to believe his innocence.
He was the love of my life, the only man I could trust on this planet. He had his flaws, was so annoying sometimes, but would never look that way at another woman.
He would never cheat on me. Because why would he? Didn't I tell him, that if he ever cheats on me, it'll be over? He wouldn't be that dumb to hide from me whatever he would ever do, right?

We never texted when I was leaving, and I also am not a fan of constant texting, myself.
But this time, not texting felt like over.
Although we didn't break up. As we just simply haven't had this conversation yet.

As the plane was about to land, I looked through the window.
Here it was. My long time dream. My destination.