Reality
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Last published Fri, Feb 26, 2016
She lives a life of regret and pain. On the outside, people see her as a happy, lively teen girl. But what they don't know is inside she's screaming for help, inside she's hurting. She isn't really a happy, lively girl. Rather, she is a depressed individual. One that ruins people's lives. She lives by her mistakes, her failures. She forces herself to feel the pain she caused to others. She thinks she is worthless, that no one cares about her really. They may say they do, but she doesn't believe it. All she wants is to be loved, cared for, and understood.
But no one deep down loves her.
When she needs help they don't care enough to help.
And no one tries to understand.
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That girl is me.
And this is my story.
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