The River That Does Not Want To Flow

Caught in a whirlwind of emotions and traditions, Ayan, a reserved and devout young man, whose life takes an unexpected turn when he meets Ziyad, a rebellious and domineering feudal lord who leaves an indelible mark on both their lives. Ayan's struggle with his own identity deepens as Ziyad-confident, flawed, and magnetic-challenges his beliefs and boundaries, igniting a forbidden connection.

Set against the backdrop of societal expectations, familial pressure, and the haunting shadows of past traumas, their journey is one of love, pain, and self-discovery. With every choice, they are pushed to confront their deepest fears: Ayan, to embrace the truth of who he is, and Ziyad, to rise above his arrogance and confront his demons.

In a tale woven with passion, heartbreak, and the timeless rhythm of qawwali, this story explores the delicate balance between love and power, faith and self-acceptance, and the courage it takes to redefine one's destiny.

Trigger Warning: This book contains explicit sexual content, sexual assault, trauma, internalized homophobia, abusive relationships, and mental health struggles.