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Deep Blue

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In lack of other options, you will all bear witness to my journey with myself, trying to better myself.  I strive to be as honest and as open as I possibly can, in a way that I am not even with myself. See this as my journal (which it essentially is), that you all get to read. Maybe you will recognise what I write, maybe you won't. It's all the same really, I don't give a fuck. 

I solemnly swear that I will be brutally honest with myself, and you. I will take you through happiness and sadness, through joy and pain. I'll bring you along for all of it. 

So, dear reader,
Enjoy my life.All Rights Reserved

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Prey by Kheinnox

by nature, im a loner. nobody dares to bully me though. try as they might they cant fathom my strength and ability. but it comes with a price. nobody even dares to call me a friend without peeing their pants in fright. but this tiny vixen got the courage to sway me into submission to his every whim and wishes. im a top predator and hes of the lowest of low. but why cant i get enough of him? born in a world where humans and shifters intermingle and common in society, ive became someone my parents are proud of. ive never dreamed of disappointing them. hence, i tried my best to be likeable to everyone. and i mean everyone. i tend to shape my personality to fit in to avoid the bitter reality that if they knew my kind, i for sure be up under their feet. survival of the fittest they might say. but how come when im with you, i smiled sincerely. i converse wholeheartedly. i touch you honestly. the heavens might strike us due to our incompatibility but can society really be the basis to how and whom we truly convey our feelings? ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- if you're interested, please, see my other books: First Book: worthy to be mine Blessed Moon Series: blessed moon saved love warm thirst silenced 2nd Generation Blessed Moon Series: freak siren's call craving death impeccably yours solace Other Books: violet prison prey i read comments and i reply to them occassionally. i read messages and i reply to them if necessary. please leave votes if you like them. im super thankful for giving me your leisure time to read my works. see you on my other books. KHEINNOX 💑❤️🏳️‍🌈

Logan by braindeadwriter06

*TW* Contains topics and scenes of sexual assault, self-harm, abuse.* "You know you loved every second of it," I can feel the tears welling up as well as the anger building up within me. I stare at him for a while before I have to turn away from his hungry gaze. "Look I just came here to tell you that I forgive you for what you did back in Cali and I'll take you back," "You forgive me?" I yell. "I did nothing to you. You raped me! You fucking raped me! You have no right to come here and tell me that. You. Forgive. Me. You traumatized me. What you did to me tore me up inside and was eating away at me until I tried to kill myself. And when I told people they didn't believe me. I had to listen to so many people talk about how great a guy you were and how I clearly just regretted sleeping with you. You are a monster. You made me hate myself for something that was never my fault. You have caused me so much pain and suffering," I pause to take a deep breath. "So you don't get to come here to my school and tell me you forgive me. You don't get to make me feel bad about coming forward. The only thing I regret is ever thinking you were a good person." _____________________________________________ Logan Young is a 16-year-old girl about to start her senior year in a brand new town. The past year has been tough and her family moved to give her a fresh start. Her life before the move had been hard and she had been spiraling. She quickly makes new friends and even enemies. She builds up walls to protect herself. But what happens when an unlikely person helps her to tear down her walls and heal. Will she be able to survive in this new place and keep her secrets intact?

It's Okay to Use Your Big Girl Voice by Beautiful_Slugger

Inside you will find a mixture of both, extremely RAW and refreshingly HEALING accounts of my personal war with my past. Unfortunately, Childhood sexual abuse is far too common, and many of share similar experiences. Looking back, what I could have used more than anything was someone to tell me "You're not alone, there is a lightness through the darkness, you can heal from this and most importantly don't EVER stop telling your story to make others comfortable". I've learned that silence is the best weapon for a predator, and I for one, have never been really good at doing what I'm told. I don't intend on starting now. I wear my scar as reminder that I hold the power in my own story, it is mine to tell and I won't make myself sick keeping quiet because my truths are hard to swallow, other people's comfort is not my problem. My Goal is rather simple, to let the readers know, they too are not alone. If you are a survivor, even if you still feel like a victim, this is my personal message to you. "You are strong, and it wasn't your fault. Tell someone... tell anyone...tell everyone... We shift from victims to survivors when we speak up and tell our stories. There's nothing wrong with you, and the light will shine again. The longer you sit in silence the more power your abuser still holds over you, wipe your face warrior, because there's a lion right inside of you, DONT EVER GIVE UP!" *This story is FULL of TRIGGERS, please be careful reading if triggers are hard for you, your mental health matters* *I own all the Rights to all parts of this book*

MY BRAIN (poetry) by peoplereadtoo

As a person who overthinks all the time my mind flows with my most precious thoughts, always seeking to create everlasting essays that shape me. There's beauty in honesty, and that's what I want to bring to every piece. I read each of my thoughts as poems. Read however you my feel the words should be read. My mind is an everlasting poem. Here are some honest thoughts from my mind and some of my favorite things. BY: PEOPLEREADTOO

Grown(Book 2 of The Athens Wolves Series) [complete] by WereGirl007

I knew who my mate was the day I turned 16. It was my brothers best friend. Can you believe it? And I only had a second of happiness in knowing before he outright rejected me. It was horrible. But being raped and locked up only to have it repeat the next day was unbearable. That was what I had to go through just a few years ago, and after a couple of weeks, I turned up pregnant. I was innocent before all of that. And I had thought that was the end of my life. My parents wanted to get rid of 'it' the 'abomination' but she was mine, in all the best and worst ways. I kept her, my parents learned to accept her while I was still pregnant, my mom even cried when we first heard her heart beat. When I turned 18, I thought my life was getting better, but I was wrong. But maybe, just maybe it will get better for me and my daughter. Complete book on DREAME, Stary Writing, and FicFun.

Fix Me, I'm Broken by Ana11e1y

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The Trouble with Trust [COMPLETED] by AlleyandMisha

I'm about to tell you a story about a girl. A normal girl. A girl that had no cares in the world, until her trust for it was stripped away. When you read her story, you'll find yourself trusting her, loving her, rooting for her. But you see, not everyone gets to trust the world. Not everyone has a happy ending. --- Halfway through the kiss however, his attitude changed; instead of being a loving embrace, it became a fierce trap. His grip on her waist tightened, trapped her where she was instead of simply holding her where he wanted her. The hand in her hair grabbed a section of it, enforcing his demand for her not to go anywhere. Before she knew what was happening, he left go of her hair, and pushed her to the ground. She gasped, suddenly able to breathe. He stood up and walked over to her. He placed a soft hand on her cheek, just like he used to when he was telling her how special she was to him. None of the emotion was there this time however, all she could feel radiating from his was rage. "You shouldn't have run off, babe," he said bitterly. "I was about to show you how much I loved you. Instead, I now have to show you what happens when you anger me." --- The men regarded her, before she was shoved to the ground and one produced a whip. There, laying broken on the floor, as the other girls watched, she was whipped. Slowly, she felt her skin breaking in time with her heart and her will.

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by nature, im a loner. nobody dares to bully me though. try as they might they cant fathom my strength and ability. but it comes with a price. nobody even dares to call me a friend without peeing their pants in fright. but this tiny vixen got the courage to sway me into submission to his every whim and wishes. im a top predator and hes of the lowest of low. but why cant i get enough of him? born in a world where humans and shifters intermingle and common in society, ive became someone my parents are proud of. ive never dreamed of disappointing them. hence, i tried my best to be likeable to everyone. and i mean everyone. i tend to shape my personality to fit in to avoid the bitter reality that if they knew my kind, i for sure be up under their feet. survival of the fittest they might say. but how come when im with you, i smiled sincerely. i converse wholeheartedly. i touch you honestly. the heavens might strike us due to our incompatibility but can society really be the basis to how and whom we truly convey our feelings? ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- if you're interested, please, see my other books: First Book: worthy to be mine Blessed Moon Series: blessed moon saved love warm thirst silenced 2nd Generation Blessed Moon Series: freak siren's call craving death impeccably yours solace Other Books: violet prison prey i read comments and i reply to them occassionally. i read messages and i reply to them if necessary. please leave votes if you like them. im super thankful for giving me your leisure time to read my works. see you on my other books. KHEINNOX 💑❤️🏳️‍🌈