Deep Blue
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Last published Fri, Apr 11, 2025
In lack of other options, you will all bear witness to my journey with myself, trying to better myself. I strive to be as honest and as open as I possibly can, in a way that I am not even with myself. See this as my journal (which it essentially is), that you all get to read. Maybe you will recognise what I write, maybe you won't. It's all the same really, I don't give a fuck.
I solemnly swear that I will be brutally honest with myself, and you. I will take you through happiness and sadness, through joy and pain. I'll bring you along for all of it.
So, dear reader,
Enjoy my life.
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I knew who my mate was the day I turned 16. It was my brothers best friend. Can you believe it? And I only had a second of happiness in knowing before he outright rejected me. It was horrible. But being raped and locked up only to have it repeat the next day was unbearable. That was what I had to go through just a few years ago, and after a couple of weeks, I turned up pregnant. I was innocent before all of that. And I had thought that was the end of my life. My parents wanted to get rid of 'it' the 'abomination' but she was mine, in all the best and worst ways. I kept her, my parents learned to accept her while I was still pregnant, my mom even cried when we first heard her heart beat. When I turned 18, I thought my life was getting better, but I was wrong. But maybe, just maybe it will get better for me and my daughter. Complete book on DREAME, Stary Writing, and FicFun.
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