Ivan
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Blue is the sky or the color of your eyes...
Ivan is a person, a thought, a feeling weaved into words that cannot reach the real man behind every syllable.
A compilation of the love and pain of loving and losing someone.
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fifteen letters.
𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐭𝐨𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐰. 𝐈 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐞. 𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐳𝐞 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬. 𝐀𝐤𝐚𝐥𝐚 𝐤𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐤𝐚𝐩𝐚𝐠 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐠𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐣𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭 𝐚 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐤 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐔𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐮𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐢𝐭. 𝐌𝐲 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡. 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐝. 𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐚𝐲. 𝐈 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐈'𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐰. 𝐆𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐢𝐭. 𝐈 𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐞. 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫! 𝐈 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝'𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐞
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