When it Was You
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"I just wish when it was you."
A short poetry, yet feels so long.
(DISCLAIMER!!)(Rape, Assault, Abuse)
This is my trigger warning for those of you have been in a toxic abusive relationship, yet always felt a connection. For the people who finally was able to get out and be free, but also can never get over the love that person gave you.
This also shows growth, finally being able to wake up without them, finally being able to move on, finally being able to stop thinking about them. You can finally get through your day without missing them, and missing the love you always thought they gave you.
This is gay, it involves 2 guys. I realized half way through writing that it doesn't seem like anyone.. That's just my fault for writing it in 1st person but yknow.. 😭
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I've had a hard life. Growing up with an abusive dad, struggling with social cues and adapting with life. Mom says this move is needed, that it'll help heal me. But I don't know if I want to be healed. Meeting the Beam brothers has been a lot. A lot of boundaries pushed, a lot of learning. But mom says they'll be good for me. So I'll give them a chance, and see how it helps. Can it be that hard? So what do I do when all three of them take interest in me? And this normal life I thought we were meant to change? Secrets come out, and trust gets broken. How do we come back from this?
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