I remained too much inside my head and ended up losing my mind.
-Edgar Allan Poe
A book of things I have realized about myself as I look inwards.
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update:: this was written about two years ago, the writing is quite bad, I apologize in advance
//trigger warning//
//dans pov//
"do you love me phil ?"
"maybe i do"
Dan and Phil are in love. But as with anything, love is complicated. Trigger warnings: cursing, homophobic slurs, cutting, attempted suicide, and some domestic violence.
Welcome to the inner workings of my mind. The thoughts and emotions I battle and the imaginary scenarios I dream up sometimes.
Think of this is as my own public diary.
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I will warn there are some themes surrounding mental health, self harming thoughts and actions, and talk of traumatising events. Please check tags for trigger warnings.
This collection of poetry is my story. This is all the things I struggle or struggled with within myself, and most of these things I've overcome. The purpose of this collection is to help y'all understand that you're not alone. Enjoy.
Are you feeling stuck, not quite yourself, more negative than positive, anxious, worried, bored, numb or apathetic to life? Do you notice that when you make changes in your life you often end up in a similar situation as before the change and again feel defeated? This book suggests that we are taught to live outwardly and to disregard our internal experience. Instead of focusing on changing your external experience, this book suggests to work on your internal self to create the fundamental changes that will change your external world.
"I can't just get over it, he's dead because of me," I screamed at Phil, "No matter what, he's the one, he's him. it's always been him, it'll only be him"
just an fyi this hasn't been edited/revised in over a year!! please ignore errors you find, thank you!
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Have you ever felt so lonely you believed there was nothing left for you?
Stashed away, merely forgotten. I mean you could cry and cry, yet no one would hear you. At least no one you truly once loved.
Being yourself can be detrimental to others happiness, and so you down play who you are. You devalue your beliefs, your morals fall short and that hollow rock turns into your Mirror.
Do you matter anymore?
Would anyone care if you simply disappeared?
Could you find your way out of the darkness?
Look Closer is one of my favourite quotes and so I'll use it as a guide to understanding the complex characters you're about to meet.
You're favourite youtube stars, Dan and Phil, meet each other and decide to move in. Along the way is romance, tears and heartbreak.
*NOTICE* Trigger Warning. If you struggle with anxiety, self harm or depression, please read with caution as your safety is more important than reads.
{edited}
"won't you go to someone else's sleep?
won't you go to someone else's head?
haven't you taken enough from me?
won't you torture someone else's sleep?"
TW : depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, actual suicide attempt. read at your own risk.
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struggling➾ phan (complete)
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update:: this was written about two years ago, the writing is quite bad, I apologize in advance
//trigger warning//
//dans pov//
"do you love me phil ?"
"maybe i do"