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Quddus

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Parts 7
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Reads 112
Votes 12
Parts 7
Time 28m

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"You're a burden to us, that's all you'll ever be" 
I know I am, I always thought I'm a burden but hearing my own siblings say this, it feels like I got run over by a truck. without saying anything i continue walking the way she guided me to. 

I was walking while I was lost in my own train of thought, i always felt like I was a burden so am i crying just because they said it to my face? i knew this was the truth, why am I such a cry baby? 

I was so lost that I didn't even realise the traffic lights had turned red, the car was spending at me, i should just die? this would make things easier for them, a burden to their family don't deserve to live, the only way to help them is to be gone. 

"honk honk"

I stopped in my tracks, waiting to finally do something for my family, i want to help them and so with a smile on my face.

but what if I don't die? what if I just get into a car accident and that'll just create more trouble for them wouldn't it? the hospital bills, taking care of me etc! They will have to do much for a burden like me, it wouldn't be fair to them 

I quickly jumped out of the way.

I'll find another way sooner or later.

___________________________________________________
 Hi guys! 
How are you guys? I hope everyone's doing great
Imagine being so broken to think that you need to die to help your family, that too with a way they won't be burdened by your dead
 this story is dark and depressing. As you can see Anna desperately trying to do something for her family, even if it means to end her own life I hope you will enjoy her journey from being so self conscious and low to just being normal.
 "she doesn't need to be useful to be worth something, she just needs to be herself."

"life is too short to be living for others"

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