Music is my therapy. It always has been. When my parents would fight, music, when I was lost in my thoughts, music, when I felt like I was spiraling, music. At first it was just listening to it and quietly humming or singing along. then I started writing my own songs. it was simply an outlet for my bottled up feelings. I posted them on YouTube, but I never expected to get popular or anything, in fact, I didn't really want too. Fate, however, had other plans. About a year after I posted my first song, it only had about 150 views, but I didn't care. I was perfectly content with my small, supportive fan base. But then, a certain boy band finds my songs, and everything changed.
A/N: Hello everyone! before anyone starts to read this book I would just like to give a few warnings. number one, updates will be extremely slow, MAYBE two per year. I struggle a lot with motivation, and I'm a pretty busy person. Number 2, I am 14, almost 15, and I, by no means, am a professional writer and there will be TONS of errors in my book. Number 3, the chances of this book being discontinued are very high, like I said, I have motivation issues, but if it is discontinued I will say so in an update or something. And lastly, this book will deal with some slightly heavy topics, and I will NOT put warnings on the chapter, I am sorry. however, I will have a list of triggers in the 'about me and the book' chapter, which will be before the book actually starts.
I know using they/them as pronouns seems a little threatening, but there are a lot of people who use it as their pronouns, and this is for them. But the book is written in a clear way where you won't get confused. So please give it a read. Everyone does for your books.
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Blue. A fitting name for the gender neutral pianist of a punk rock band. A name that expresses the amount of guilt that weighs one down, as well as the depression sinking one's heart. But blue is a beautiful color, one of clear skies and shining water. Just like the person, the color Blue is a lot of things.
Many years ago, Blue's parents died in a car crash, resulting in their older brother Luke to raise them with the help of his best friend, Andrew. Andrew had always been accepting of Blue, making sure they always felt safe in his presence. Of course, they always assumed he was merely playing nice due to the fact he was in love with Luke.
When Blue's grades begin to falter, Andrew agrees to help tutor them, bringing them closer together. Through their friendship, he helps them learn how to deal with life as the nights get long and how to begin to ask for what they want without guilt, even if it means wanting to be with him.
*This book is inspired by the anime Junjou Romantica, though it is far more appropriate than that anime, so you will notice some correlation. I hope you enjoy!