The Lies We Promised To Keep || •Sakura~||

I don't know how to do this anymore.

I don't know how to wake up and pretend there's a reason to keep going. I don't know how to carry the weight of you, of us, of everything that was supposed to be but never will be. It's crushing me. It's swallowing me whole. And I just let it.

I still whisper your name when no one's around. I still reach for you in the dark, even though I know you're not there. My hands only find cold sheets and empty air, but for a second, just a second, I can almost feel you. And then reality rips through me like a knife, and I remember-you're gone.

You're gone.

And I don't know how to survive that.

I don't eat, I don't sleep, I don't feel human anymore. I feel like a shell, like something that used to be alive but isn't anymore. And maybe that's what I am now-something left behind, something discarded, something that no longer matters.

Did you ever love me? Or was I just a place for you to rest until you found something better? Was I just a temporary home, one you never planned on staying in?

I would've died for you. I still would. But you left me here, half-dead and choking on all the things I never got to say. And the worst part? You don't even care.

You get to move on. You get to live. And I'm stuck here, trapped in the wreckage of a love that only ever mattered to one of us.

I hate you for that. But I hate myself more for still loving you.