Elation. - in her name (Cate Blanchett)

"Cut me some slack,I wasn't meant to notice you". Not in that way. Dr. Catherine Blanchett-formidable, brilliant, untouchable-had dedicated decades to mastering the art of restraint. Her world was meticulously structured, her mind honed by the philosophies of Kant and Kierkegaard, her lectures a testament to control. Love was a concept to be analysed,idealised , not experienced. Craving and yearning was something that happened to others. Yet, the first time she found you in herself, anticipating feeling your soul locked into hers with a simple glimpse in the lecture hall, she was enlightened that something had changed.

Initially, it was subtle-a glance that lingered a moment too long, a silence that stretched just enough to be felt. She convinced herself it was pure admiration, an need to dive into your intelligence out of curiosity. But then came the emptiness, the overwhelming awareness of you when you were. She had spent her life believing she was immune to such feelings towards a woman after years of dating women, her gaze lingering with mere lust. Now, she was coming apart, slowly, beautifully, undone by the first question she couldn't seem to find the answers in her memorised books.

-the only character i own is my o/c- Emelia and Paige etc.

-trigger warning: religious trauma