14 Kapitel Laufend Bobby's death leaves a silence that neither Buck nor Eddie knows how to fill. For Buck, it feels like losing the one person who truly believed in him. Bobby wasn't just his captain; he was the father figure Buck had been searching for his whole life. He taught him how to slow down, how to think before running into danger, how to believe that he was enough. When Bobby dies, all of that feels like it disappears too. Buck keeps himself busy, taking every shift he can, working until his body gives out because it is easier than facing the emptiness Bobby left behind.
Eddie handles it differently. He shuts down completely. Every time someone says Bobby's name, Eddie breaks. His throat closes up, his hands start shaking, and he has to walk away before anyone sees. Sometimes it happens at work, sometimes at home when Christopher asks an innocent question about him. Eddie tries to stay strong for his son, but the grief is too deep, too raw. He loved Bobby like family, like the one person who understood him without needing him to explain. Losing that kind of presence takes something out of him that he doesn't know how to get back.
Buck notices. He stops saying Bobby's name around Eddie because he knows it hurts too much. Instead, he helps in small ways. He cooks when Eddie forgets to eat, cleans up the kitchen without being asked, and stays overnight when Eddie's house feels too empty. Some nights they don't talk at all. They just sit in silence while Christopher sleeps upstairs, the weight of everything they have lost pressing down between them.