Just what I'm thinking about..
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Just what I'm thinking about, cause people around me are hateful, bullies or just sexual abusers.
I need fucking therapy.
Being a teenager is probably the worst time of my life, that's why I want to end it.
All the other teenagers are normal, they get into relationships, go to the movies and that kind of thing, have fun with their friends...
But it disgusts me.. THEY ALL DISGUST ME!!
(This contains comments that you will surely not agree with, I am not trying to start a debate, I am just putting my thoughts here)
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