Not Even the Best Friend

There's this boy in school. It's not like he doesn't know I exist, he knows. This is the story of the popular boy i'm in love with, and me not being able to tell him how I truly feel because of the shy "nerdy" person I am.
I've known Asher Smith for two years now, I first met him in my spanish class in our freshman year. I'm pretty sure he only used me cause I'm hispanic and can actually speak it, but over time I like to think we grew a little closer than just that. Maybe it's all in my head, just like my friends say, but they don't feel what I feel when he and I talk. God do I hope it's not all in my head.