♧˚Friends come and go...˚♧

Just some venting experience from me. Yeah... Bc my friends keep leaving me despite that i hate being alone. And this is from an autistic person too so yes, it hits worse for me... (I have mild autism so it ain't bad but i still suffer from some of it.) also im not using their real names, but ill still be mentioning a few of them... Golly i need more friends like Chance (its a girl btw, i call her Chance bc she has an addiction to Chance from forsaken. Her initial is S)... She was a listener so i was grateful to be able to spill my thoughts whenever needed to on call with her.. I miss her already...

You know... If you were to become my friend, maybe try to get me comfortable first before initating friendship bc it really depends on gender (im not sexist but i have problems with trying to be friends with boys without being weirded out in fear of them having a crush on me... Like that one guy named Acotch or however it was spelled- (this is targeted)). So best i would be more preferred to girls as friends. Just saying-

This will also contain a bit about my current friends too, and yeah. Plus my girlfriend bc she made me feel left out a few times- (idk whether its a platonic or romantic relationship since im aroace AND lesbian... Help-)