AVOCADO "Even though it's killing me. It will be okay."

Caspian POV

I visited Sister Alisha at the church. We talked a little about everything that had happened, and then she handed me Sol's diary. Afterward, I walked home and went to my bedroom. Opening the diary, I read it, my eyes swelling as I read the last page of my dear Sol's diary.

September 16, 2019
Dear Diary,

I'm truly in love with Caspian. I know it sounds crazy. He's so..... complicated. Perhaps I'm setting myself up for disappointment, or chasing an impossible dream-I want to marry him.

My Caspian is sunshine hidden behind clouds; I'm determined to be the one to clear the way, to let his inner light shine. I want to bring him joy, to show him beauty, to make him smile. He's a lost star, and I'll be his guiding light, even if it means getting burned. I see his hidden hope, and I have to try, even if it hurts, to show him the beauty he deserves. I won't give up

I know it's a long shot. He doesn't even seem to notice me and love me, But I can't help but hope. I can't help but believe that maybe, just maybe, he'll see the light in me, too. Maybe he'll see that I'm the one who can bring his sun out. I can't give up on him, or on us. I have to be his light, even if it's just for a moment.

please just gave me one more chance one more life to be his light in his dark life.

Caspian my love, I can't take it anymore. I can't keep pretending that I'm okay with this. I can't keep watching you walk away, leaving me behind in the dust. I'm drowning in this love for you, a love that burns hotter than the sun, a love that consumes me. I know you'll never feel the same way, but I have to say it. I love you! with every beat of my heart I really really love you, even though it's tearing me apart. I love you, even though it's killing me. It will be okay.