No one knows my struggle.
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This is a poem I wrote on the 7th of December in 2013 at 3:59pm, as this was 2 years ago I cannot remember what actually happened that day but judging by the poem it was clear that I was in a very dark place, I felt really tired of life and would cry all the time because I was the only one who knew what I was going through. I felt so alone and troubled because everything was going downhill for me, so I believe I wrote this poem in hopes that I would feel better. Trying to look back now, I can't even remember what happened that day, but I guess it means that when you are going through hard times it may seem like that's how it's always going to be, but I promise that whatever is a problem to you now won't be a problem to you a year or so after and you won't even remember some of the issues that seemed like huge problems, when you look back you will realise that what you were going through was just a passing phase. So I urge anyone who is in a dark place to not give up.
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