I fell in love with the Illusion of you

This poem explores the painful and complex dynamics of anxious and avoidant attachment. Through a deeply emotional and spiritual journey, the poem reflects on the internal struggle of a woman caught in the cycle of attachment, where love is mistaken for a need to feel validated, wanted, and complete. As she stands next to the person she once thought was her everything, she comes face to face with a heartbreaking realization-she's not truly in love with him, but with the illusion of what their relationship could have been.

The poem captures the deep inner conflict she feels as she grapples with the pull to stay, despite knowing that this pattern of love is unhealthy and self-destructive. She is, at once, pulled by the comfort of familiarity and the painful truth that her true growth can only come from walking away. It's a journey of self-liberation, as she chooses to break free from the past versions of herself who chose toxic love over self-love. Ultimately, the poem is about the strength to let go of attachments that no longer serve her, and the quiet, painful wisdom that she must choose herself-no matter how difficult that decision is.