Brian McCook was your first and greatest love-the kind that leaves a mark on your heart forever. But life had other plans, pulling you apart for reasons beyond your control. You never stopped thinking about him, though. To you, he was still Brian, the boy who once made you feel seen, the one you thought you'd always understand.
Years later, you find an unexpected friendship with another Brian-Brian Firkus. Before the wigs, the fame, and the legend of Trixie Mattel, he was just your best friend, the one who could make you laugh on your worst days. What you don't realize is that, somewhere along the way, he started falling for you.
Then, the past resurfaces. You see Brian McCook again-only now, he's Katya. And the truth you never saw coming? Both he and Trixie are gay. Suddenly, the love you lost, the love you never considered, and the love you thought you understood all collide at once.
Now, you're left with a choice: Do you hold onto the past, or open your heart to something new?
"You want to be ballet dancer? Get used to psychological terror."
Trixie Mattel had been at the academy since the age of eleven. But by the age of sixteen every teacher who had ever believed in her had told her she should quit. She didn't have the body of a dancer, they said.
And now, at the age of twenty, when her academy education had ended and all her classmates had gained apprenticeships with ballet companies, Trixie was left with no job and nowhere to train.
And so she went to the one person who could make her into a ballerina;
Katya Zamolodchikova