My bully story

this story is about me being bullied. it has nothing to do with this year. last year i was bullied too badly that i was too close too commit suicide (kill my self). of course i would understand the people who would bully me because i was also a worse bully to my friends. i was one person bullying many people and making them feel like they don't belong here. but when my friends started bullying me, i could always feel how i made them feel. thinking about this situation i had makes me feel suicidal and very sad. i may have forgave them but i would never forget what happened just like they will never forget how i made them feel. it all started when i would bully everyone in my class. i would make them all cry and just tear there hearts into pieces by one word. except that i regret doing those things i have done. i will never forget what they did but mostly what i did to them. when i started bullying everyone they started hating me. when the year ended i got into a big fight with my best friend. i always told her sorry but she wouldn't forgive me and just hate me. she would say everyone in the class hates you and that broke my heart. one day at math class in summer, i was talking to my classmate that didn't hate me. she showed me her messages that she had in there new group without me. i was tearing into flames second by second when i went from message to message. they would say she so mean and i hate her... (i don't want to talk about it). but i understood. they had the right. i made them feel like that before. after many days that the bully continued i didn't tell my mother or my sister that i trust more than anyone else and tell her everything. i just couldn't. many days passed but the bullying still continued until one day in the bathroom i was thinking about something. after some thinking i SWORE TO GOD that is this bullying continued only for two more days i swear i will kill myself. ( read the rest in the next chapter)