"aching for your love" || a shadowvanilla fan fiction with my own tweaking
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TEASER
(will be repeated in the chapter)
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"Shadow milk." he stared into my eyes his gaze narrowing at me as my heart dropped from his demeanor.. which was ODD!!! my head slowly turned to face him, my slim, long nailed hand clenching tightly on my skin till I leaked my own blood, tickling down my hand. lucky enough for myself, darkness
engulfed to sight of it!
(a/n : pure vanilla has only poor eye sight but he can still see!)
"Yesss~ silly, silly Nilly!" I said with a little essence of real positivity, my unbloodied hand raising up to caress my cheek. I scanned his face and body, his smile faded, teeth pressed together in.. anger? I tilt my head, staring into his eyes in a softened glance.
(PURE VANILLA CRASHES OUT GANG❤)
"I don't give two shits about your ass. I DIDN'T EVEN STEAL YOUR SOUL JAM!" he bellowed in my face heaving probably getting some weight off his chest from admitting it.My heart sank as my eyes slowly began to fill with this wet liquid, which was confusing. Looking at the picture now, I could tell from his face he was not okay in the beginning. his had eye bags with some cakey ish powder over it to cover it up.. well! WHY AM I THINKING ABOUT THIS?? sigh, am I? the master of deceit having a soft spot?
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ᴀ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ᴛᴀsᴛᴇ❤❤❤
ғᴏʀ ᴍʏ ᴅᴇʟᴜʟᴜ ᴀss ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ɴᴏᴛ ʙᴇ ᴀs ʀᴇʟᴀᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀᴄᴛᴜᴀʟ ᴘᴀʀᴛ ʙᴄ ɪ sᴜᴍᴍᴇʀɪsᴇᴅ ɪᴛ(ɪ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ sᴘᴇʟʟ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴏɴ ɢᴜɴᴘᴏɪɴᴛ.)
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