Anxiety Waves
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MatureComplete Wed, Mar 26, 2025<5 mins
In this dark world there might be light. But that light might be breathless with stillness and cold. These come from a place deep down in the soul where it's hard, yet easy to find. That comes for your awareness of sadness and depression. The rain on a cloudy dreary day with a cold chill sensing your body. But in that comes the pitter patter of raindrops and calm noises. With that the mind and body is still and limp making no sounds but still aware of its surroundings, unknowing of the things they're seeing and feeling, altogether getting overwhelmed in the darkness where there is no light to be seen. Day in and day out is the same cycle, nothing changing so they or it doesn't make a mistake. If they do, then it goes through the whole day into a rain storm, gloomy, chilling and dangerous. Getting angry and agitated by the smallest thing or shy, reserved, and repressed in a lazy lonely state. Not getting their job and work done. Vegetating until night time when they just sleep and try to do their routine again. They might even go deeper and deeper into the darkness and never get out.
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