Even If It Hurts
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Last published Thu, Jun 18, 2026
Caitlyn Kiramman didn't expect to make it to her second year of college. After a devastating loss and months of spiraling, she's back on campus-alive, but barely holding it together. The fall semester brings familiar pressure, the weight of expectations, and a loneliness she can't seem to shake. Recovery isn't a straight line, and Caitlyn's still caught somewhere between surviving and giving up.
Then she meets Vi.
Loud, bright, and a little rough around the edges, Vi's everything Caitlyn isn't. She's fyought her own demons and clawed her way to the light-and now she's determined to help Caitlyn find her way back too. A chance meeting outside a lecture hall turns into something neither of them expected.
But healing is messy. And love, no matter how fierce, might not be enough to fix everything.
A college AU exploring mental health, found connection, and learning to live even when it hurts.
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