The Things I Shouldn't Feel
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Last published Wed, Apr 23, 2025
Elena Van Doren
He was my first kiss, my first chaos. Jayden King-tattooed, bruised, and the boy I should've stayed away from. But he sees the real me behind the lies. And every time our eyes meet, it feels like falling. This isn't love. It's everything I shouldn't want-but do.
Jayden King
She's fire in designer heels-fake smiles, cold stares, and a heart she swears doesn't feel. But I know better. Elena Van Doren was never forgettable. She's the chaos in my calm, the ache I never shake. I shouldn't want her. But fuck, I always have.
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