Sad things about my life
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Last published Wed, Jul 15, 2015
At night I can't sleep because I'm thinking about how ugly I am. I cry so much that there are no more tears left. I have held scissors to my wrists just wanting to end it all. My dad didn't love me. He loved drugs.
Hey this is my 3rd book. I didn't finish my other book because I was not happy with my life. I'm writing this to get things off my chest. No bitchy comments because I have enough bitches in my life. Sooo yea.
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