When All Our Souls Fell Apart

It was June 14, 2013 at exactly 2:56 in the morning when she said it. When she told me those three words that as humans, we just simply cannot understand, the three words that seem to mean so much but always end up meaning nothing at all. I was so naive then, the careless girl who believed everything and anything anyone told her, the girl who was liked by all and had a seemingly perfect life. The world knew nothing of my private whereabouts. As far as the world was concerned, I was just the sweet and innocent Lanie they knew and loved.

I wasnt worrying about Tommy at 2:56 AM on June 14. I wasn't even thinking about him. Or the possibility of me ever having anything to do with him.

I wasn't dreaming of Eli, like I use to every night.

I wasn't thinking about Eleanor and her smoking problem or her abusive family.

I hadn't even been paying attention to Elsie the day before.
But that was the old, naive me. I won't ever make such an amateur mistake again.