Dear, Maria // Sonadow

Dear, Maria
Being immortal sucks, I wish I could meet you in heaven.

Dear, Maria
Life is hard, I don't know how much longer I can hold on knowing you're gone forever out of my grasp.

Dear, Maria
Today, I made my first friend.

Shadow mourned Maria, every, single, day of his life. He lived his life alone with not a single hand to hold or a place to call home. All he wanted was to feel wanted, or to feel that happiness that Maria once showed him was possible in such a way. His days were cold, dark, and lonely. That was, till he met a special blue blur, Sonic the Hedgehog.
Sonic was cool, Sonic was fun, Sonic was energetic, Sonic was funny, Sonic was happy, Sonic was strong, he was everything Shadow wasn't and thought he could never be.
Once they met Sonic showed love and care, they became close and even though Shadow had gotten something he had always prayed for-a reason to keep living-that's not what he wanted. Though Shadow had learned he loved the boy, as a friend and more, he couldn't stand the possibility of losing another loved one.
So he asked himself one question:
"Should I stay, and provide him with my love and protection all while risking losing him in battle, or should I go before I lose him and end up just as before?"

TW:
- attempted suicide and suicidal thoughts
- self-harm
- eating disorders