A MiSeRy.
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Last published Fri, May 8, 2015
Here I lie down so blue on so sleepless a night,
As I can't fall asleep as I turn out the light;
Nobody knows how different I am
The outside of me is not afraid
full of pain and even ashamed from inside.
I slit my wrist to erase the pain,
my eyes turn red, bleeding my tears,
What do you call it when all you feel is pain?
when you know your life is meaningless
And you are only one to blame.
i am sad and lonely,
wearing a mask that always smiled;
dieing day by day
cannot take the pressure to be perfect alwayz,
I couldn't go on,
is this what you called a life??
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