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A MiSeRy.

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Here I lie down so blue on so sleepless a night,
As I can't fall asleep as I turn out the light;
Nobody knows how different I am
The outside of me is not afraid
 full of pain and even ashamed from inside.
I slit my wrist to erase the pain,
my eyes turn red, bleeding my tears,
What do you call it when all you feel is pain?
when you know your life is meaningless 
And you are only one to blame.
 i am sad and lonely,
wearing a mask that always smiled;
dieing day by day 
cannot take the pressure to be perfect alwayz,
I couldn't go on,
is this what you called a life??Seluruh Hak Cipta Dilindungi Undang-Undang

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A MiSeRy
Jum, Mei 8, 2015

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A MiSeRy
Jum, Mei 8, 2015

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