Why Not Me? (Kintsugi #01)

Am I a yearner or a martyr?

If that question is a line, then I'm making that line a jumping rope.

I've been loving someone who wants me near, yet also wants me at a distance. I was fine, or at least I told myself it was.

I also didn't mind the pain. I just wanted to love her. Regardless of whether she loves me back or not. I'm just grateful to be by her side and that she allows me even for a short time.

She constantly asks me why. My friends also ask me why. Funny, I also ask myself that question. But I guess there's no possible reason. The world won't be able to justify, and the world doesn't need to understand.

For me, she deserves everything. Every love, and all the good things.

She's been guarding herself, with walls higher than the castle she's in. Still, I knew that I didn't need to climb the walls. I had the urge to stand by the gates and guard her as well. Guard her until the day she's finally ready to open the gates.

Will that day ever come?