one more for you

TRIGGER WARNINGS: suicide, sh, depression.
PLEASE READ WITH CARE <3
jeongin is broken. unfixable. he knows this; he's come to accept it- come to embrace it, even.
he's tired of fighting to breathe every day, tired of suffocating, tired of trying. he's seen enough, he thinks. it's not going to get better. he's not going to get better. no matter how much his friends lie to him, his life/he is still a shattered mess. might as well do them all a favor and throw the mess away/break himself permanently.
he's planning to do it. at first it was a whisper, an impulse that faded quickly. but the more it kept flowing back in and the more he let himself indulge in it, the more it took over. he has a plan. he'll write a note, overdose, and leave, and it will all be better. he will, he tells himself. he'd do it at night, maybe, and they'd find him in the morning. but-
every night in hyunjin's arms, he looks at the face of the love of his life and thinks to himself, "one more day, just for you."