I hate myself
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MatureComplete Sat, Apr 19, 20256h 15m
Simone Antoinette is a young woman quietly unraveling. Caught in a world where she feels like a misfit-among family, friends, and even in her own skin-she battles the heavy weight of depression, PTSD, and a deeply fractured sense of self-worth. Most days, she can't understand why anyone keeps her around. The idea of disappearing feels less like a fear and more like a longing.
But everything shifts one night inside a dimly lit nightclub, where music drowns out her thoughts and strangers blur into shadows-except for one. A chance encounter with a mysterious stranger sets her on a path she never expected, one tangled in connection, chaos, and questions she's been too afraid to ask herself.
As her world begins to twist and turn, Simone teeters between healing and self-destruction. Part of her wants to believe things can get better. The other part... still thinks it might be easier to just push everyone away-and disappear for good.
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